I am Looking Through You

This song is by THE BEATLES.

Captures how i am feeling right now perfectly.

I'm looking through you, where did you go

I thought I knew you, what did I know
You don't look different, but you have changed
I'm looking through you, you're not the same

Your lips are moving, I cannot hear
Your voice is soothing, but the words aren't clear
You don't sound different, I've learned the game.
I'm looking through you, you're not the same

Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right?
Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight

You're thinking of me, the same old way
You were above me, but not today
The only difference is you're down there
I'm looking through you, and you're nowhere

Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right?
Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight

I'm looking through you, where did you go
I thought I knew you, what did I know
You don't look different, but you have changed
I'm looking through you, you're not the same

Yeah! Oh baby you changed!
Aah! I'm looking through you!
Yeah! I'm looking through you!
You changed, you changed, you changed!

TEARS OF A CLOWN......

The circus of life has finally brought tears to THIS CLOWNS face. For one fleeting moment my life was so beautiful and complete. I finally knew what people meant by the word HAPPINESS. This time and GOD knows why i truly believed in my heart and soul that THIS IS IT, now i will live happily ever after. Snap back to reality.... one month after THE MOMENT i am right back where i started from, in my room-staring at this fucking laptop, watching movies, reading books and staring at the walls wondering WHY. A lot of questions with no answers, wow where have i heard that one before. Sums up my miserable life so beautifully doesn't it " ? " This little question mark.

Life has turned me into a clown. All i do is make people laugh. Clowns don't have friends, clowns need no friends, clowns don't fall in love, clowns don't deserve to fall in love. All clowns do is laugh at the madness and people laugh at them. Laugh you fucking freaks..... laugh.....

Now finally the jokes upon me and I don't get it. I am staring at the people around me who are laughing hysterically like madmen but i fail to understand what is so funny. The reality hits me like a bullet train-

I AM THE JOKE AND THEY ARE LAUGHING AT ME.

ONE FINE DAY......

One fine day i broke my heart....

One fine day i got over it....

One fine day i saw a girl.....

One fine day i met that girl....

One fine day i laughed with that girl....

One fine day she messages me....

One fine day i told her that i like her.....

One fine day she holds my hand.....

One fine day she holds my hand and doesnt let go.....

One fine day she rests her head on my shoulder.....

One fine day i am in love again......

One fine day she cries but doesnt tell me why....

One fine day i am on my knees and i cry.....

One fine day i come to know she is in love with another.......

One fine day she is gone.......

One fine day I DIE.......