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Sunday, November 8, 2009

WAVE........... WAVE.............

No this is not a poem about the sea.


This is me proclaiming my undying love for GOOGLE to the entire world. All of my near and dear ones know that I am crazy about GOOGLE. I will not get into the WHY's and HOW's, maybe some other time. But the thing is unlike HUMAN BEINGS, GOOGLE listened and acknowledged my passion. Today I got an invite for GOOGLE WAVE... the new toy from GOOGLE for chatting and stuff ( go GOOGLE if you want to know what it is). Since i first heard about WAVE from a friend i have been constantly trying to get as much information about it as possible and obviously i GOOGLED it ! :P and guess what GOOGLE noticed it i guess. Since it knows every damn thing about me anyways ( GOOGLE stores our search records SILLY !!). In many ways it knows me better than anybody in this entire world.

I know it sounds scary and creepy that how could a company know so much about us and get away with it. What about our privacy and shit !! Lets not get into that debate because its useless to me. I am a devotee and will always be, come what may and nothing that anybody or everybody says is gonna change that. So the point is GOOGLE knows that i am in love with HIM/HER/IT. But obviously we cannot get married in the conventional sense of the word! So this is GOOGLES way of saying I LOVE YOU TOO MATE !!!

So to GOOGLE my love, who has been my friend and a guardian angel who has never let me be alone and get lost in the wild wild web. Who has provided me with so much knowledge that I could ever fathom even existed. My passion for you will remain unchanged come what may.

CHEERS !!!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

THE HERMIT

And the wise hermit has returned !


After the tumultuousness and turbulence of the past couple of months i am finally calming down (not entirely though). The past few months have stretched me emotionally so much i feel like a rubber band that has lost its elasticity. I have nothing left emotionally. Nothing to offer to anybody, not love, not friendship, not comfort...... nothing.... zero... I dont know whether i will find the courage to love someone ever again, i am so scared now. Never have i known the heights of happiness and the new bottom that i crashed into. I have never been happier and sad at the same time within a span of 4-5 months. The child inside me was dreaming and flying, the young man inside was soaring and zooming but the wise old hermit was nowhere to be seen.

I should have read the signs. But signs can only be interpreted by the wise and unfortunately the hermit had disappeared when i needed him the most. But i dont think that would have made much of a difference because I still would have been blinded by my own happiness. Now the constant pain and emptiness that used to plague me has returned in full measure and so has the hermit. I like the pain, i can live with it. At least its loyal and faithful, unlike happiness which is fickle and deceiving. It promises the heavens and gives hell instead. But pain keeps its word, it would never go away. This pain has given me my wisdom and the sense of peace and calmness that i find so intoxicating. Now i am once again slowly getting detached from this world and its inhabitants, slowly killing the need for any human emotion and touch. And sometime in the future i shall disappear into the shadows and the mountains far far away...... in search of peace...

Not love........

PEACE !!!!!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I am Looking Through You

This song is by THE BEATLES.

Captures how i am feeling right now perfectly.

I'm looking through you, where did you go
I thought I knew you, what did I know
You don't look different, but you have changed
I'm looking through you, you're not the same

Your lips are moving, I cannot hear
Your voice is soothing, but the words aren't clear
You don't sound different, I've learned the game.
I'm looking through you, you're not the same

Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right?
Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight

You're thinking of me, the same old way
You were above me, but not today
The only difference is you're down there
I'm looking through you, and you're nowhere

Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right?
Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight

I'm looking through you, where did you go
I thought I knew you, what did I know
You don't look different, but you have changed
I'm looking through you, you're not the same

Yeah! Oh baby you changed!
Aah! I'm looking through you!
Yeah! I'm looking through you!
You changed, you changed, you changed!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

TEARS OF A CLOWN......

The circus of life has finally brought tears to THIS CLOWNS face. For one fleeting moment my life was so beautiful and complete. I finally knew what people meant by the word HAPPINESS. This time and GOD knows why i truly believed in my heart and soul that THIS IS IT, now i will live happily ever after. Snap back to reality.... one month after THE MOMENT i am right back where i started from, in my room-staring at this fucking laptop, watching movies, reading books and staring at the walls wondering WHY. A lot of questions with no answers, wow where have i heard that one before. Sums up my miserable life so beautifully doesn't it " ? " This little question mark.

Life has turned me into a clown. All i do is make people laugh. Clowns don't have friends, clowns need no friends, clowns don't fall in love, clowns don't deserve to fall in love. All clowns do is laugh at the madness and people laugh at them. Laugh you fucking freaks..... laugh.....

Now finally the jokes upon me and I don't get it. I am staring at the people around me who are laughing hysterically like madmen but i fail to understand what is so funny. The reality hits me like a bullet train-

I AM THE JOKE AND THEY ARE LAUGHING AT ME.


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

ONE FINE DAY......

One fine day i broke my heart....


One fine day i got over it....

One fine day i saw a girl.....

One fine day i met that girl....

One fine day i laughed with that girl....

One fine day she messages me....

One fine day i told her that i like her.....

One fine day she holds my hand.....

One fine day she holds my hand and doesnt let go.....

One fine day she rests her head on my shoulder.....

One fine day i am in love again......

One fine day she cries but doesnt tell me why....

One fine day i am on my knees and i cry.....

One fine day i come to know she is in love with another.......

One fine day she is gone.......

One fine day I DIE.......


Saturday, July 4, 2009

Is Roger Federer the greatest ever? -By Kevin Garside

This is an article i liked from THE TELEGRAPH (UK)

An early impression of these championships sees a long-haired Romanian with improbable flair and a refined sense of showmanship flinging himself hither and thither, flicking the ball between his legs and handing his racket to old ladies and ball boys imploring them to have a go. His defeat to the upright, utilitarian Stan Smith in the Wimbledon final 27 years ago was the death of magic in the eyes of one young boy.

The match, Gone With The Wind set out across five epic sets, was regarded as one of, if not the best the Championships had seen; how that accolade moves around. Nastase was irresistible, not least because he didn’t have a moustache and he wasn’t Australian, a nation whose champions dominated at the dawn of the Open era; Rod Laver, John Newcombe, Tony Roche and Ken Rosewall. They spoke our language. They drank our beer. Nastase did none of these things. He brought mystery to the court.

What kind of player might be regarded greater than all the hall-of-famers above? Who is the man to head a roll-call spreading across a game that has been global 100 years? Is it fair to ask it of anyone to prove himself superior in all facets of the game? Yet this is what a player must do if he is to be regarded the best of all time. This is the claim made by many on behalf of the Swiss maestro in Sunday’s final. We are on the point of witnessing a landmark in the sport. None has 15 grand slam titles against his name. Statistically at least Roger Federer fills out the greatest criteria.

Though Federer won the Wimbledon junior championship 11 years ago, few saw in that victory the future that was to come. In the past 30 years only Pat Cash and Edberg have converted junior success into senior glory. Then three years later, while still in his teens, Federer buried the legend of Pete Sampras on Centre Court ending an unbeaten run of 31 matches. It was Federer’s maiden appearance in the house to which he would himself claim squatters rights. He lost to Tim Henman in the next round. It was 2001, the year that Henman ran into 'good’ Goran and bad weather. It was the year that Federer marked our cards.

Twenty-one consecutive grand slam semi-finals and 14 major titles are the numbers that speak for Federer today. But statistics are only part of Federer’s story. The elements that elevate him still further are aesthetic and ethical. He thrills on three fronts by winning, by doing so gracefully and with elegance and style. And the clincher; he has won on all decks.

In this the age of the two-handed backhand, the baseline slog, of biceps, of grunt and sleeveless shirts, Federer says no to all that. He eschews the dark side. He is every mother’s son, head boy in the tennis academy, a stainless charmer, modestly turned out, fair in manner and deed. And when he lets that backhand go we swoon.

His command of the tennis canon, his technical mastery, provides him with the material tools to win. The brain of a surgeon married to a gladiator’s spirit complete the kit. As 'nice’ as he appears, there is no sentiment attached to the kill. The dispatch is often brutally quick.

Afterwards he rarely speaks a bad word where a good one will do. There was little to compliment in the performance of Ivo Karlovic in the quarter-final. The lumbering Croat is serve dependent. Beyond that withering bullet there is little to his game. So Federer heaped praise on the pretty motion that aced him 23 times.

When he loses he does so without exception to the better man. To come second in a Wimbledon final classified as the best of all time, losing a title he had held for five years and his No 1 ranking with it to his greatest rival must have wrung his soul dry. Yet Federer stepped aside without fuss, extending his hand to Nadal while dying inside. Both had given every fibre. Neither deserved to lose.

Nadal took the greatest prize in tennis, but Federer gained in defeat. He showed us that losing, though painful, is not necessarily failure. How can it be if you have given all you have, left nothing in the locker. None can point the finger. Federer had met his match. He could not have done more. In circumstances such as there is, nothing for it but to acknowledge the better man and come back another day. Federer did this, and in doing so he acquired immortality.

On Sunday there is history to write. He has spent the fortnight in the shadow of Andy Murray, a willing warm-up act on Centre Court before the BBC went prime time. Murray is a great British story. Federer’s tale is greater than that. It transcends national interest. He is a global phenomenon the like of which we might never see again in tennis.

Poor Tommy Haas has spent a career with his nose against the window pain of high achievement looking on at the likes of Federer, wondering what he had to do to join him on the other side. This being his 32nd year he had considered leaving the racket at home and trying something else, modelling perhaps, or playing exotic aristos from a distant land in low level American soaps. One more go he said.

In Paris he drew Federer in the year he would break his grand-slam duck at Roland Garros. Despite a two-set lead, Haas’s fate was to become a footnote in Federer’s run to a 14th slam. Here, where Federer has won five times, where all his superhero efforts are trained on setting a unique benchmark in the game, Haas met him again.

Now it is Roddick’s get rid of this line for online turn, poor lad. There is only one who can look Federer in the eye and he is holed up beneath the Majorcan sun nursing a broken family and crumbling knees. The separation of Nadal’s parents coincided with the kind of career-threatening injury Federer has managed to avoid. Who knows when Nadal will return and for how long?

Federer’s run at the top of the game is as much an act of will as physical perseverance. His reliance on timing rather than power puts marginally less stress on his bones, but there is no let up between the ears. It takes a singular soul to dog it out on the circuit year after year, living out of suitcases, hitting balls day after day, hour after hour.

And to pull it off without a hint of controversy, never once missing a bus, or kicking the car door of a teenage girl, or abusing a police officer outside a nightclub in the small hours. Federer’s idea of rebellion is to marry the girl next door and start a family.

It would have been quite a day had Murray made it to the final. Perhaps it is better he didn’t. Let Roddick be grand slam victim No 15. Murray was that man nine months ago in New York. The experience made him a better player, but not yet good enough. For anyone born beyond Britain’s shores, this year’s tournament has always been about Federer, about the first to shoot for 15 grand slam titles, about the best there has been. Sorry Ilie.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

IBA 2.0 Part-1

My so-called 3 month long summer internship came to an end on 18th of June 09' as i boarded the train back to Bangalore. It was a remarkable period in my unremarkable life. I started my SIP, with a lot of hopes and dreams for the coming period. But how it eventually turned out is unreal. My initial burst of energy slowly faded away and i switched back to my old ways of lying in front of the PC all day long and trying to entertain myself with orkut, facebook, movies and games, which was very UN-ENTERTAINING to say the least. The only spark was the end of the day talk with a special someone (from my side atleast) and day-dreaming about the future, ignoring the reality. But that chapter came to an end when i opened my stupid mouth and blurted out my feelings. The aftermath was quite obvious. The happy days were over and reality was staring at my face. I retreated back to my cave. But I couldnt hide away forever. So i turned up the volume of the outside world, hoping that the noise outside would drown the pain inside. It worked well when i was around with friends and family, but nobody can reach inside and make the pain go away. More about THAT some other time.

I found my coach and settled down. Some of my college friends were on the train too, had to say HII and all, just to be nice. Honestly i couldnt care less, but the NICE GUY SYNDROME takes over. They gave me a lot of shitty news, more classes, more assignments and a lot of other scary speculations. I had a sinking feeling inside and a part of me wanted to run away. But i carried on, (AS IF I HAD A CHOICE). I excused myself after an hour of fake laughing and college dissing. I slept off the rest of the journey, a better use of my time than wasting on people. But i was restless; due to obvious reasons. I had to figure out what to do with the TIME(not LIFE) thats ahead of me. So I Chalked out some plans, wrote it in my pocket diary, never to be opened again for sure, but had to do it to make myself feel better. Uncertainty clouds my reasoning, which breeds chaos.

Thats all for now.